“I’m not in a mood of writing. I’m tired from farm work so not today. There are so many things I want to write but I don’t know where to start.» Blah Blah Blah…
It has been already HALF A YEAR since the day I decided to start my blog. Also from the day of my arrival to Spain.
It was beautiful 6 months with lots of learnings and findings each day. A note on my iPhone was being filled up with plenty of ideas of articles.
However every time I tried to write, I was so obsessed with editing my words to make it look right and ended up being so lost from what I genuinely wanted to write. So I was never able to reach a button to publish, made another excuses and tried not to think about the fact that I actually didn’t publish any articles for 6 months…
But today, The Ground Rule that I had set for this blog caught my eye and it made my bad spiral terminated.
It says : Write my own true story and your original opinion. Don’t manipulate it to look nicer and Quit your blog when you started adjusting your words/contents towards what readers would like.
…Ouch.
– Yes, I was a big procrastinator.
– Yes, I always have great ideas, I believe, but every time I am so slow to make it into action. But I want to improve it.
– Yes, I was obsessed with perfection and couldn’t help putting other’s eye first. And now I’m struggling to find a healthy balance. Perfection and Right timing. Others and Myself.
Here I am, finally able to publish the first article by convincing myself to write a true story and to admit true-self.
Hello World, I’m a Japanese curious monkey, Monkurious, newly joined exciting era of 30s this year.
I’m writing this article during deescalation phase of lockdown in a caravan situated deep in the mountain of Tarragona, Spain.
What are you doing in Spain? :
I came here to visit eco friendly farms of different provinces to learn local food culture, to learn Spanish, to nurture ideas for my future plan in Japan. And maybe.. to come back a little bit to true-self through this experience.
I spent my 20s working and living in a city of Japan. As the time goes by, somehow adjusting myself towards what others prefer became a normal thing in me. Didn’t feel like I’m true-self but left it as it is. And yes, I did liked my job which is similar direction of my goal but turned out not exactly the one I wanted to pursue. But let the little bit of uncomfortableness as it is.
But eventually the cup was overflowed. In the end, I could not stop distracting myself from the fact that I didn’t challenge myself enough towards what I truly want for my life and be what I truly am. And I knew that unless you try, you never get it.
So now I am still in a process of challenging myself to find the best way to flower my potential, building my career and pursing my way of life.
Sounds too dreamer or wannabe? Too late to start?
Maybe I am, maybe it is, but it matters to me that I take one little step forward anyway.
With this blog I want to write my days of struggle and progress which mainly led by my curiosity and made by bite size pieces of actions. Hoping it will somehow encourage fellow 20s and 30s who struggles towards your goal.
🙂 More details of profile? Please check “ About me” page.
🙂 Knows cool eco friendly farms to visit in Spain? Kindly let me know through contact page?
🙂 Why are you in a caravan deep in the mountain!? Look forward to the upcoming post!
Today’s Spanish words:
Siempre has tenido ideas geniales. Siempre. Pero es que las dejas en tu cabeza. Escoge una u ve a por ella.
= You always had great ideas. Always. But you store them in you heard. Just Choose one and go for it.
